mother's day

before i became a mom, i never thought about what type of mom i'd be. when i became a mom, i worried that i was no good kind of mom, just someone faking it and making it up as she goes and nervously hoping i wasn't messing it all up. but now that i'm a mom and have been for a little while, i think i can say that i still don't think about "what type" of mom i am or want to be. and i still worry that i'm messing it up all the time. but i think i'm just gonna keep being me, and try to be brave when i need to be, and smart as much as possible, and strong when i want to be, and kind as much as is possible. i have a mom, and it seems to me that she was never trying to be any type of mom--she was never going to be my best buddy, and she wasn't a permissive mom, and she wasn't a sports mom--but that, instead, she was just being herself. i like that. i guess that's the type of mom i want to be.

so i'm going to keep running in races and cheering for my favorite guy and letting my littlest biggest fans cheer for me. i'm not going to get worried that i don't look very good when i run.

go david!

and i'm going to keep my own mom close by, and learn from her, and let her just keep being her. and there's still going to be ice cream.

and i'm going to try to remember all these things--not to worry if i'm good enough, not to worry if i'm the right type of mom, and to remember to just be myself.

mother's day weekend was full of so many good moments, like time with my parents, and our race, and a backyard afternoon with good friends, and beach time, and a canoe ride, and a fancy brunch. and i'm going to try to enjoy these moments. not just on mother's day, but on every day.

i sure do love these little creatures.